Hey there, its been a while I know, but yes, I've decided to post something up, something I've just written. No theme, no challenges, just something I felt like writing.
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I walked by them about a thousand times, maybe more. They played in front of an alley entrance on a busy street. You ever see one of those streets that are closed off to motor traffic, but instead have several small shops, privately owned, nothing corporate? Those kinds of streets tend to be the home to all kinds of street buskers. You of course have your Jack Johnson wannabe crooners, playing all the soft rock hits, singing them out in a raspy whisper of a voice. They don't shave, they don't cut their hair, and they pay hundreds of dollars to buy clothes that look retro or vintage, its all a part of their image. Next to them you have your balloon artists, running around in make up making balloon animals for children and pretty women they don't have a whisper's chance in a choir with. Magicians, of course fall into this same category. The street is home to several artists, selling pictures of your inflated head driving a sports car, or paintings of pretty sunsets, hand crafted knick knacks and brick-a-brack are available in all forms. It looks like something out of a J.K. Rowling novel. That being said, one would think it hard for anyone in particular to stand out in such a crowd, but these two...I don't know, it's hard to explain, but they just did.
The old guy with his torn top hat and blue checkered collared shirt, poking out of a gray vest, was playing on a piano, the kind one might find in a pub. A lot of work, one can assume, to get that thing out onto the street. And the girl, she gently tapped away at a small drum set, her brown hair hanging out from underneath a winter cap, bundled in a brown, off orange, p-coat. I walked by them everyday, sometimes I would stop to listen. I must have been the only one, or at least that is how it felt, everyone seemed to continue on their way, paying these two musicians no mind at all. An odd thing, since their music was perhaps some of the most captivating I had ever heard. They never sang, the girl just seemed to hum a long to the songs that she and the old man in the torn top hat played. Finally, I had to ask, a momentary lull in the music, as if waiting for me to ask (the girl continued a soft beat on the drums).
"Why don't you ever sing?"
The old man turned on his seat to look at me, "Never had much a talent for it, can't seem to find the words for it."
The girl smiled a small smile from her drum set, and the old man chuckled a little bit. It must have been written all over my face. How could such music not have lyrics to it? How could music that seemed to conjure up images, stories before my eyes, not themselves have an actual story to tell?
"We improvise." The old man pointed to an acoustic guitar leaning against the piano. "Been looking for a third, why don't you join in? I'd bet my last dollar that you have those lyrics you're looking for."
"What? No, I couldn't possibly."
"You mean you won't." The girl was looking up from her drums, and eyebrow lifted in mock inquisition, unable to mask the faintest smile at the edges of her lips.
"Well, I can't...tried the guitar once, never been all that..."
"Good at it?" The girl finished my sentence for me. "I know you've tried to learn, and you gave up, a bunch of excuses, come on, give it a shot, what have you got to lose?"
I wish I could say that I picked up the guitar right there and began to let loose a flurry of chords, but I hesitated instead.
"I know a guy, and He told a bunch of people once, people that needed to hear what He had to say, that they could move mountains, uproot them and cast them into the sea. All it took was a little faith, a little heart." The old man smiled.
"Wasn't that Jesus?"
"Oh? You know Him to then? Look, pick up the guitar, and give it all you've got. Have a little faith in yourself? Play the first thing that comes to your mind, stop letting fear get in the way of faith, take heart in the fact that you would never be lead into a place that you could not be carried away from."
Reaching down, pulling the guitar into my hands, I looked at it for a but a moment as I slung it around my shoulder, the only sound I could hear was the light rasping of a snare drum, and the gentle hum of a symbol. The sounds of guitar strings as my fingers ran along them looking for chords, the piano chiming in, a bouncing, soft melody, accompanied by the drums, awaiting my guitar to strum into its place:
" Far away, so far away now
Dancing dreams that went with her
Are so far away.
Pools of blue, deeply swimming
Sparkling vortex have me spinning
Framed in chocolate rivers flowing
Ivory lines, all brightly shining
Dancing in white birch corridors
That paint roads copper and gold
Never seems to touch the road
It where my dreams do go
Far Away, so far away now
Ripples in the water now
Just so far away
Quickly moving, every chasing
Point me in the right direction
Never Stopping, ever running
A worthy desire upon reflection
Grant me courage
Remove my fear
I seek wisdom
I seek things made clear
Far Away, so far away
I am getting closer now
Not so far away."
We played for hours, I had never felt like that before, it was freedom, there was no doubt about it. It was well into the evening, perhaps even morning by the time we had finished, and my bloody fingers wouldn't let me play anymore. One song, maybe more, nobody stopped to listen, it didn't really matter.
"I'd say that about does it for today." The old man began to rise up from his chair, and he placed a hand on my shoulder. "But before we go, I am wanting to tell you something. You've experienced what it is to let go of fear. Fear, is the opposite of love, most would think it's hate, but to be true, hatred stems from fear. It is fear that stops you from living the life given to you. It stops you from making the choices you want to make. Fear of getting hurt, fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of embarrassment, fear of inadequacy, fear of self. Fear is what stops you from using the gifts you've been given, the life you aught to be living. I'd say whatever that song was about is worth the risk of a few scrapes."
I walk by that same alley way every single day, I've never seen the old man and his, presumably, daughter. No one seems to know who I am talking about whenever I ask, not even the other buskers. I still walk by the alley, I still hum the tune to a song that had no lyrics, but was given some. I still remember what the old man in the torn top hat told me, and it's not easy, but I am getting by.
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